A Modern Day Tragedy

I made 40 dollars on 2 party's today. Thats three hours worth of work on 2 tables, and total of 40 dollars in tips. Not to shabby might I add. However I hate little spoiled brats. I knocked a few over on purpose when I was in the suit. Especially the one who decided he would like to punch my in my nut sack ass hard as he could for amusement. Little fucker.

I pride myself in being a health freak. The last 2 days however I can't say I have been. I just decided a few minutes ago I wanted to run out to Taco Bell? WHy, because I saw an adertisement on TV. I have not touched beef in a year. I feel sick.

Cheers Loves,

Tragedy

I hate My place of work, and the bitches who come in there, with their fat little spoiled children. These people walk all over me and treat me like a piece of stupid shit. Watch one of these I wil achieve greater wealthy then they can ever imagine. I have sworn and still do on my grave. I will make something of myself in this life. I can only live it once, and I am gonna make the fucking best of it. I have a 10 hour work day tomarrow from 10AM to 8 PM. I don't want to work anymore I hate it. Cheerleading is just so fucking expensive though.

However I love a song by Norah Jones called, " Sunrise". It always put's a smile on my face. Cheers me right up, and I sing along.

Right now I feel like dancing the night away. In a club to " Loose Control".

Being and gay, and not out sucks. You know what would suck more. Being outed and having nowwhere to live, no money, and noone who cares. I'll take my pick and stay in the closet until I'm done with college. At least with my family. Once colleg rolls around and I go to one a long ways away. I'll be the dating machine;)

Cheers Loves,

Tragedy

It scares me! Coming out, to my friends and family I mean. I know what is going to happen they will disown me, cut my off financially, and I will have nowhere to go. I hope this day does not come for a long time. Where will I go? How will I survive I'm still in highschool? What will I do to live off of? I am so scared. When this day comes I will have so many foes, and barely any allies. Right now I don't even think, I have any allies that could help me. I mean I do, but they live in NC. Thats the price for being Southern, Mormon, and privileged I guess. However I suspect it will be within the next year. With a guy I was in a relationship back in Febuary, running his mouth. People are talking once my parents pick up on this through the grapevine. They will realize it. There have been so many signs over the years. I am so scared. Why couldn't I have kept my mouth shut to him, and stopped my hormones in their track. I felt that he was the one, I thought everything was all alright. It wasn't he didn't want anything, but a quickie that I refused to give him. So he leaves, and now his yapper is running more then ever. I only pray everything will be okay. However I know deep down inside my days are numbered. No Allies, No Money, and nowwhere to Turn. There is a Tragedy right there for you.

On another note I worked tonight. I really dislike my place of work. I love kids, but I hate these little spoiled brats who come in here and start acting all tough. It's funny because so many times, when I have been in the rat suit. I bump into kids knocking them over, hurting them, and I blame it on poor eyesight. Revenge is so sweet.

I have the biggest urge to go dancing. It's about to kill me. When I was at Duke. I went dancing all the time at Avalon in Chapel Hill. There is just something about it that I love. Being hot, sweaty, and just going with the flow I love. I was told I dance like a black girl, and I can dip it low, and pick it up and roll it all around and pop my thang. I love it. There is nowwhere around here to dance. I can't drive until I turn 18 in a few months. I want to go to a club, preferably a gay one. I've never really been around gay culture. I'm eager to taste it for once in reality, instead of through books and TV. I want to dance to " Loose Control", " 1,2 step", "Oh"," Pass that Dutch","Get Yer Freak On","Pon De Replay", " Touch", "Milkshake"..... I wanna go dancing. Who lives in Atlanta, and wants to take a gay guy to see his first gay club? Hell I'll go with anyone. I WANNA GET OUT AND SEE MIDTOWN!!!!!!

I want to go to Mid-Town and gay dance club. Any takers in ATL? I am being serious people.

More then that, I wanna first kiss. I wanna hold someone. I wanna cuddle. I wanna feel something for someone. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT, it's about to kill me. I have knowone to truly talk to. Except a few people I have met online. They aren't the same like a real person. I want a real person and I want them soon. I WANNA GET LAID!!!!

My mom is sick. I fear the worst. I came home from Duke early because they found 6 growths in her. It's cancer phase 2 nearly 3. We are selling the house to pay for her surgery, and treatment. Please pray.

Cheers Loves,

Tragedy

Noone actually stole my Ipod. My Idiotic self left it in Bean Traders, on Ninth Street. With my bag and everything. Okay so I get this call a few nights ago from the owner of the Cafe. They finally after searching my entie bag, pulled out Cookie, and it had my name on the back. Being I have a very rare last name and only 2 familes in the whole USA with it. Well I got the package today and everything I thought someone had stole was in it. I wrote them a thank you letter, ang gave them back the money for the shipping. I would use bigger words like reimbursment, but I don't know how the fuck to spell it.

And for those of y0u who fight a sometimes winning, other times losing battle with the bitch known as Acne. I highly suggest this stuff called Zirh. A friend recommended I bought some, and wowzers my face is clearing right up.

Cheers Loves,

Tragedy

I hate Michael Crook. I have said it before and I am going to say it again. If you hate the war, you hate the war. You hate Bush, then hate bush. For Christ sake people, at least support our troops who are helping defend our freedoms.

Duke was over last Wensday. I am just now updating, God alot has been happening in my life since I have been home. I did visit Taylor, he seemed like he was in a cheery mood for once. I;m gonna miss him, but I will se him again he was total awsomeness!

I have things to do.

Cheers Loves,

Tragedy

Someone stole my bag, with my Ipod in it. I am pissed as Hell. If I ever find out who you are, you will die at the hands of Tragedy.

If you see this Ipod however please contact me.

Silver Mini
It has A Cracked Screen In The Upper Right Hand Corner
The Casing Has Alot Of Scratches On It
It is in a Silver NJOY Ipod Mini Case, With the beltclip missing

Please return Cookie To me

Cheers,

Tragedy

Okay, so far. Duke is going awsome only a few days left and, I am so sad. I know I will most likely never hear, nor talk to these people again besides a select few. None at this session will I ever most likely talk to again, just because there really none of that chemistry there. Our friendships are weird, just inside jokes and cliches that hold us together. I is so much like high school. I fit in with the really preppy girls, and then their are the depressing goth chicks that tend to get on my nerves, there are the asians and, oh so many this year. Along with the jocks, cheerleaders, and vetrans.

There is this one girl named Mika, and she is a lesbian. She so gets on my fucking nerves. Mika is stout pale, chubby with a belly, and has this short curly brown hair that just sits on her head. She is so fucking opinionated, and gets on my nerves in Randall Williams Visual Arts and Poerty Class. Which by the way is an excellent class, and I highly suggest him to you for those of you looking into coming here in the future. Back to Mika. She wears these shirts that are to small for her, and when she sits back she has this hairy stomach. She is just so fucking weird, and the stretch marks galore are so like ew.

Caroline however is one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen. I thought she was like 17, but no she is 13! I was like woah. She is a cheerleader, funny, perky, and just reminds me of the friends I have back home in Atlanta, and miss so dearly.

Howard L. Craft has this Writing For The Screen class that I am taking. I love this class it is so interesting. Alth0ugh I don't see me ever writing a screen play. I love it though. Howard is such a wonderful proffessor. His teaching skills and his ability to make me want to write is amazing. Although I think it is somewhat of a cliche if you know what I mean.

Randall Williams, wow, where do I start with this one? This is one of the interesting classes I have ever taking we have some of the weirdest discussions in this class. He hates Bush, and although I don't support the War in Iraq, I do stand behind my President for a reason. I mean the day we stop believing in our government is the day democracy has failed this great civilization of humanity. I might not like him, but you know I will stand behind him. Although I ain't takin no bullet for Bush. I really would love to see Sharpton, Clinton, Edwards, or Barnes as President in 08. Back on topic though for me. Randy is so opinionated, I love having a left wing liberal radical Bush bashing professor. I mean I just fit in so well here, people love the arts, hardly anyone is a conservative, and it is just so amazing.

Randy has a way to make you think. Like we were disussing Social Issues 101. I love it we were discussing our opinions on what racism, sexism, and bias is. It is amazing, we have studied why conservatives are so wrong and idiots. I love writing I really could see myself in the future being a freelance liberal journalist. I would love it, and my writing skills are some of the highest here at Duke. I truly am suprised to see how Liberal Duke University is.Well I should clearify. East campus near Ninth Street is the liberal part of the college. Bush Bashers everywhere and noone around supports our president. I love it. Bush you can suck can suck it.

I am really going to miss my summers here at Duke Tip. Next year I am going to be going to Vanderbilt Unversity for their summer programs.

Next summer I am going to Vanderbilt University to study for a 6 weeks. I have signed up for their Social Issues course, Liberal Arts Studies, Sociology In Depth 101, Poerty and the Arts, Social Journalism, and Cultural Philosophy. I can't wait. Only problem this is 4000 dollars. We made the deposit, and with the divorce going on right now, and everything. Money is so tight, and I worried I might not be able to go. My Mom says however I will go:)

My roomate this year is a fucking pig. I hate him. He is such a guy dirty, hairy, fat, and oh so ugly. OMFG I hate him he is so messy. My side of the room is clean, smells nice, and organized. His side is well you know disgusting. Plus he uses my shit without asking pisses me the fuck off like my laptop, shampoo, and I think has stolen about 40 dollars of mine because it is missing. Plus he keeps me up all night, either snoring, scratching, or making weird noses. Plus he is fat and hairy and walks around with this shirt off. I am like please put if the fuck back on. At least he stays the fuck away from my tea, and yoga matt. If he touched either I would kick his fat white ass all up and down Randolph Dormitory. I will kill him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Okay so we have this talent show coming up. Everyyear they are so boring anyone can enter it. College Students, TIPSTERS, ADFers, Young Writers, and god it is just so boring. So this year to spice it up I have decided to do a fashion show in it. I am not sure how I am doing this yet. Althouh we do have cardboard for a run way and, I am still thinking of the music I want to use. Either " I'm So Sexy" by Right Said Fred, or " Roses are Red" " Barbie Girl" by Aqua I am at such a delimia I have 2 weeks to plan this and of course being Tragedy I do it at the last minute.

I shall never stay in a dorm while in College. I will kick someones ass if I have to put up with them for an entire year and they were pigs, and used my shit. Plus they are noisy are fucking hell. I can't ever sleep people coming in all night long, slamming doors, plus the bathroom is right outside my room of course, and everynight I hear it fucking SLAM. Plus Hall Ball.... OMFG Hall Ball.... the worst game ever invented I can't tell you how many times I was writing a paper and the college student decided they wanted to go out and sit at opposite ends of the dorms and do this. OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG....... GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........GRRRRRRRRRR...... I have nearly been hit twice by a fucking tennis ball filled with pennies. If that thing would have hit me all hell would have broken fucking loose. I swear I could have killed someone. And then the noise I can't write. I have to either go outside into the quAD, or into lilly library to get shit done!!!!!!

I love East Campus's library Lilly. It is so nice open 24/7 and is so fucking big. This campus is beautiful. There is this girl here a supervisor named Glennie. She goes to Emory. She is so rockin. I am hitting Clubs with her sometime in Atlanta most likely Loca Luna, or Monaco. She and this chick Nora, they are both so down to earth. I love Glennie though I call her Lennie, I thought that was her name for the longest period of time. Now it sticks!!!!


I will continue more later, but I need sleep and I have classes at 8!!!!!

Cheers Loves,

Tragedy