A Modern Day Tragedy

The spring of 2007 was my final year in cheerleading, but I stayed active. Through the summer I stayed active, but I continued to eat a lot. I kept my weight somehow in a checks and balances... Well August rolls around, and I start college. I was only part time taking 9 credit hours, not a full course load, but a lot on top of my my full time work schedule. I found a way to balance it...

September comes, and we move into a new house. It is a beautiful house, only problem it's 30 minutes away from the nearest gym. Frantic I suck it up, and manage to get in the gym 3 days a week. Well I gained a 8 pounds when finals, papers, and work got tough from October-December. Then I leave to backpack Mexico for 3 weeks. It was a great expiereance, and the food was OMG. It was so OMG when I got back on January 11th, I weighed 148... I have continued to eat like a bottomless pig, and this morning my weight hit 150.1 LBS.

Not only is this not going to fly, it's going to all go away. My ass looks like cottage cheese, my stomach has a pooch thing, my abs are now down to a hardly visible 2 pack, and I can feel my thighs rubbing together. On top of this my jeans aren't fitting well, and I just feel disgusting.

So tomorrow I start the Abd Diet... I will post pictures frequently, and all that good stuff.

2 nights ago I was editing my template, and I screwed it up... I lost my links, and my favorite template I spent hours figuring out about 2 years ago!

Okay, I 've had the worst 2 days in a long ass time... Here is how it has gone down.

Yesterday, I was going to work, and got pulled over for speeding. The cop was nice enough to drop it town from 14 over to 11 over to keep points of my record. Then about 4 hours later I was backing out of the driveway for work, and I ran into a tree now the back of my truck is dinged up to hell. Finally, I went to get gas yesterday, and paid $60 cash inside. After I paid I went to the bathroom, and went back out to my truck. I hopped in, and just drove off. After realizing what I did almost 20 minutes later I went back, and someone had used my gas. They couldn't refund it...

Then today I had to be at class at 8AM for a field trip I have been looking forward to for eons. Well what in the damn hell do you think happens? They cancel the trip at 10 AM this morning, and it will be at least 5 months before they can reschedule...( This isn't that bad, I just wanted to go on this trip!)

On another note... I start the Abs Diet on Monday, no I am not fat or even hefty. I am slim, but have gained about 8 pounds, my abs are kinda hidden... I want them back!

God Bless Sugarland,

T

You know those times when things just aren't going well, your feeling depressed about packing on three pounds, your boss is a major bitch at work, and life just seems to want to blow the other guy, and not you? If your a gay man, you know what I am speaking of...

These last 2 months I have just been "BLAH" with life, I dated a guy I liked and fucked it up, I am stressed with work and school, and financial worries are somewhat nagging at me as well. I haven't felt very attractive, because I gained 3 pounds backpacking through Mexico in December, and God knows what else is pissing me off.

Thats where Manhunt.Net comes into the equation. Every gay man knows this as the Mecca of hookups, and you can't have dinner with a gaggle of gays without hearing, "GUESS WHO I SAW ON MANHUNT..." Being loudly whispered across th table, so everyone hears. We all know the person who said this as well, was just doing that fake little mean girl gossip whisper, so everyone could hear, and just not that one single soul. Now, they have the pleasure of having the whole tables attention, and being miss Queen for the next 10 minutes. Then the person they were talking about as well, now had the embarrasment of being secretly harrased for the next 2 weeks.

Manhunt.Net is more then this though. I have had a profile since I was 17, when I was 17 it was for contacting gays, it was my only option of gay interaction at the time. Since then it has progressed to me wanting to use it as a hookup site, but I have never actually had the nerve to meet some of those beautiful men on there.

Nowadays I use this site for reassurance. When I feel unattractive I just log into that website. Within 2 minutes I have 20 messages, 5 winks, and a every pedophiles attention from here to California. It makes me feel better about my self, it makes me feel like I am desired.

So please don't bash the man you see on this site, we all you your on it as well. You just have your pics on private, or are using the cuties pics next door...

*Vent Done*

I am 19, going to be 20 in March. I have had one boyfriend in my entire life, and that lasted all of a few weeks. Even more, it was almost 3 years ago. Is that weird?

For some reason in the "Gay World", young gays have the extreme habit of always finding the one they love, the one they wanna spend the rest of their life with, and just "THE ONE" in general. They meet some guy within 2 weeks they are boyfriends, within a month it's " I <3 U" text messages, within 3 months they are living together, and by month 5 they are broken up, and the drama begins. By month 6 the cycle has repeated itself, and there is another " Mr. Right."

I am not gonna lie, more then anything I want someone to share something with. I want someone to build a future with, and I date people, and I meet people. Some of them are very attractive, others of them not so much, but I do give them a shot. There was one guy I fell for, he was slightly below my tastes, but gos his personality made him seem so hot to me. Then he moved for school after knowing him all of 4 weeks, but yeah...

Back to the topic, I just do not find it neccesarry to meet my love at 19. I want that special someone, but I am willing to wait to find it. I know each morning I wakeup I could meet him. Weather it be at the gym, dog training, work, grocery store, whatever, I just know one of these days I will meet a guy. Even if it doesn't last more then a few years, or months I know it would have been genuine.

I do not require a bitch for myself in order to feel complete, I can feel complete on my own. But then there are those days when I just wanna come home, curl into a ball, and sleep next to someone. I had my chance with a guy, then I go get drunk, and fuck it up... Oh well, there are plenty more gay in this world for the picking...

Cheers,

T