A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

There are moments in everyones life, when something random and unexpected comes to the table that leaves them utterly unable to talk. There have been moments in my life where someone has told me something about them, that was disturbing at first. However after it has sunk in allows me grasp who they are with far better understanding. Conversation the other night with someone whom I slightly know. Me: Are you feeling okay? Him: No, I have been sick all day. Me: Oh God, dude I am sorry what is wrong? Him: We're not sure, either it's a bug or my HIV... After he said that everything else which poured from his mouth seemed to just evaporate into thin hair. I sat there for a minute wondering if I had heard correctly and my reply... Me: Did you just say you had the three letter disease...? Besides the fact that I was tripping over my own words this whole time, my whole body got shaky. The pit in my stomach grew three times it's size, and I felt like I was gonna vomit. Him: Yes, I ...

I just found out Anna Nalick was coming to Atlanta on August 29. I was bursting with joy. I have never seen my favorite artist in concert. When she was here with Howie Day last summer, I was at Duke. When she was here with Rob Thomas, I had a competition. Now she is here with some moron named Chris Isaak, and for this reason I cannot afford tickets. They are $135 each, and for this very reason I has just shed a tear. I am actually very sad about this... I really want to see her.

Besides listening to Wreck Of The Day remake song over 55 times today... I have also determined what kind of guys I truly am attracted to! For some reason very pale light skinned guys drive me wild. I am talking about the light skinned German, Polish ones. Their skin, and hair just is so beautiful. Their skin tone is like nothing I have ever had the pleasure of seeing before. Also I have also determined that Jewish guys are also very hot. There is something about them:) There I said it! I like German, Polish, and Jewish Bois...

Well it is almost here. On July 11th,2006 Anna Nalick's remake album Wreck Of The Day(06) hit's shelves. I have almost been blown away by the new remake of Wreck Of The Day song. You can hear it on her myspace .........

As of right now I am sitting at Atlanta's Gay cafe OutWrite. There is nothing more tense then seeing someone of whom you once dated sitting on the balcony. He said," Hey." Then there was a quick hug. This is very difficult for me sitting here. Seeing him drawing away into a journal. Wondering what he is drawing, and wondering what he is thinking? This is the guy I dated a few weeks ago, and it still is very difficult for me to sit here. I want to talk to him, but the approach is hard................ My life is not a Tragedy, but this situation is an unfolding one..............

I have officially left the bartending/serving world, and hopefully forever. For a while now I have been doing my own gig, by that I mean I have my own company. It had been growing slowly until this week the local paper caught wind of the high schooler who owns a business. They ran a story on it, and it was on the front page of the local paper. I told the journalist who wrote it my whole story. She kept telling me the whole time people would love this..... Well, she fracking woman distorted everything I told her. Especially about my mother, it is all true, but God is is phrased so harshly. I love my Mom, but our relationship right now is very rocky. She thinks I don't spend enough time at home, and I am always working to much. She claims I neglect my responsibilities for watching my brothers all summer while she travels with work. I can't watch them 24/7, so you get the picture. She knows the local paper is doing a story on it. I told her I couldn't find the paper anywhe...

Okay, so as some of you know I dated a guy for about a week. I actually really liked him, and the 2 guys before him claimed I neglected them. So this one I decided not to neglect and it backfired. He told me he felt like I smothered him. I actually was starting to fall for this one. But he was sincere to me when he told me that. I was hurt though I didn't shed a tear, but I honestly was hurt. For a week I ran into him 3 times and it was so awkward for me. I almost felt like he hated me, so last night I hear from some twink say, " Yeah, I he was telling me he thinks your an asshole to him, and a jerk." I called him and I feel so much better. He better explained himself, and myself to him. He was still genuine for all of the 8 minutes we talked. I shall miss this one, but at least now I can approach him, and talk to him when I see him.