A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

I bought the Battlestar Galactica video game for Xbox, and it is the same thing for Playstation 2. I can only say this.... Save your money!!! On another note I'm so looking forward to the BSG Episode tonight at 10 EST. There is an unwritten rule everyone knows, who knows me. If you disrupt me while I am watching this, all hell will break loose!!!! I get so pissy it's not funny. The same thing existed when Buffy was still running, and Star Trek Enterprise( although the last few seasons really sucked). I was in Love with Buffy, and I have always been a trekkie since I can remember. Not a freaky trekkie though. I am highly anticipating tonights episode. I mean in the previews it seems like both Adama's get shot. Woah, and they find the Tomb, and I don't think Roslin is a Cylon like so many say. and A question for Starbuck. WTF is wrong with you girl? You left that hot piece of man candy on Caprica, you fucking slut. I would have snatched his ass so quickly. Cheers Loves, T

Okay so growing up when I was a little kid. I was obsessed with the Power Ranger, and not just obsessed I was in fucking love. I watched every episode until the end of Lost Galaxy. When Saban finally got rid of everything in the Power Past, and cut the strings for the newer generations. I alwats wanted to be a Power Ranger. I still want to be a Power Ranger, like on the show. I know I can tumble, act, and I think I have decent looks. I hope, but I know one thing I'm gonna do next year, is go to the auditions in Toronto, Canada in May. I will, and I want to make it. I can tumble, I have decent looks, and I am pretty sure I can act. Now all I have to do is sign up for some martial arts classes early next year, and do them once a week, get in better shape. I have already started a diet, and increased my jogging time. I also need to get my tumbling back, fucking mental blocks. I want this so badly, hell I've wanted it for 13 years. I think I want to be a Ranger, but I have always

Okay so I was looking for some new away messages and I ran a google search " sexual away messages". I came accross this hilarious website here are some of the funniest ones. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Michele: Look, these say 'I've got a case of the love bugs.' Gina: Umm....aren't those called crabs? -Reading the caption on pair of underwear in Wal-Mart Christa: ...and her ass was bleeding so she had to tell her mom she had anal sex with a big black man. Larisa: Couldn't she just tell her mom she sat on a corncob? Chris: Dad, what's the blow-hole for? Peter: I'll tell you what it's not for, son. And when I do, you'll understand why I can never go back to Sea World What do you call a Jewish homo? A He-Blew --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I thought

See that song on the left on the Navigation Bar, by Anna Nalick. It's called Breathe (2am). It's the most beaudituful song I have ever heard. I have not stopped playing it since Arpil 425 times I have listened to it, on Itunes alone. Listen to the words here, here are the lyrics to assist you. They have meaning to me. Although I am not sure exactly what? 2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake Can you help me unravel my latest mistake I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season. Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes Like they have any right at all to criticize Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason. Cause you can't jump the track We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table, No one can find the rewind button girl So just cradle your head in your hands. And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss Just today he sat down to the flask i

Okay I worked all damn day. I hate kids, I should rephrase. I hate other peoples children, besides kids I know I love my kids I coach. All of them. I am gonna be one of those parents who love my kids to death, but always make fun of and start rumors about weird kids at their school they aren't friends with. I wanna go dancing. On another note I think one of the hottest guy scenes in any movie. Is that scene from Weird Science where the guy walks out in womans panties, and a cut off grey shirt. I think he is one of the hottest people in a movie I have ever seen. And I love his body type. I wish he where in my bed right about, now!!! Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Why is it only gay guys that have online profiles on dating websites while they have a boyfriend. I am serious if a woman in the straight world found out, that her boyfriend had an online profile and was talking to people via AIM and Phone. She would kill their asses, but in the gay world this seems to have become the accepted norm. Why? I think it's awful, and I would never do this to anyone I cared about. If I found out someone was doing this to me. I would kick their ass. I watched a very interesting movie/documentary I'm not sure what you classify it as. It was called The Laramie Project, and it was about the Mathew Shepard murder. Very touching, and it made me cry. Also tonight I was walking down the stairs. Dumbass me, sprained my ankle, great!!!! Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Quick story.... Okay so I just moved into a new home. Last Friday we got the cable TV hooked up. I hear the door ring, and I open it up. Next thing you know there is this hot hunk 20 something year old standing there in this tight shirt. he said, " I'm here to fix your cable." He came in did his thing, and said there was a cable broken in the yard that he needed to fix. So he went got a shovel, and started digging. Well after about 20 minutes he takes his shirt off..... Pecks, Abbs, and the body of a fucking god is getting all sweaty in our yard. I come up to my room and watch from my window. He is gorgeous. Tall, dark, southern accent, body of a god, then he looks up and sees me staring at him. He didn't say anything, bti I think he knows. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Today has been a day of complete weirdness for me. For starters I got into my car today, and sitting there in the passenger seat, was a bag of open sour gummy worms I had bought yesterday. I took one out it was all soft and mooshy, and oh so good. So I hate it all, the only problem they melted to the bag. So I was driving around with a bag of gummy worms in my mouth sucking the taste out. People are driving by and looking at me like I'm pshyco, with this bag of platic in my mouth looking like I'm eating it. Then I went out to the car to get some shampoo and conditioner I bought at the Salon tonight. Well when I went out, I saw this woman. Just walking at 11 PM!!!! By herself slowly along the line on the left side of the road, dressed in full day attire, in high heels, slowly just in a straight line. I yelled, " Lady are you okay?" No responce she just kept walking slowly without turning. A lot like a zombie, ina horror film. This was really weird I watched her for a

Okay so tonight at cheerleading, we have this coach. He's gay, which I don't have a problem with except this fact. He's a 6-1, dark black, gay man who acts like fucking Queen Latifah. It's such a turn off I expect this kind of flamer femme behavior from a 5-6 any race skinny gay dude. Flip the wrists and calling each other honey. But he just makes me scream GAH. I hate his ass he's not even cute picture 50 Cent acting like Carson Kressly from Queer Eye. This is Mike, for ya. I wanna scream he's butch tall and dark. You expect " GRRRRRRRRR.... I'm Ghetto Yo" out of his mouth, but instead you get " OMFG don't you didn't honey, I'm black to we can take this out back if we must." Which by the way is an actual qouta from tonight. Cheers Loves, Tragedy PS- If anyone knows anything about mental blocks please help me, any suggestions and I will love you this is nearing 5 months now of them. Please I beg of you.

I am officially moved into our new home. I shall miss my old home, really I will. This house is 2800 square feet in the middle of nowhere. Our last one was 6400 with me and my 2 brothers and Mom, on this gorgeous Southern Estate. I know it's only for a while, my Mom will get better. But I can hardly stand being in such close proximity to my brothers and Mom. Before I had alot of space and it used to be so silent. Now it's noise, screaming, fighting and god damn knows what else. But perhaps I need a change like this in life. I have always grown up with everything handed to me on a silver platter. My family has always been very very well off, and I think it's time I get a taste of what normality is. I can use this expierience to my advantage later on down the road. THings will get better after the collaspe of my Mom's company, the divorce from the jackass stepstep, who took half of what remained, and now my Mom being sick nothing is left. However I know deep inside that

Fucking Fabulous Kathy On Top, Steamy Apollo On The Bottom, I wonder if he could be a bottom? I love Kathy Griffin. I watched her show Kathy Griffin: My Life On The D-List or whatever the hell you call it and I love it. She was making fun of good o'le Clay Gaykin( I swear he is), and God, was my ass in th bed rolling laughing.Then the Claymate part, I thought I was gonna die. The other show I have adore is Battlestar Galactica, I know I'm like the only gay guy on the planet who watches it. But I have always had a thing for scifi series since I was little. Now that they cancled Star Trek BattlStar Galactica is going to have to fill a huge void. But the thing about it, is that it's somewhat realistic. I love it plus Apollo is, FINE. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Alright so it's 9:30 AM. And I am bored to fucking hell. For those of you with an Ipod or Itunes here is something interesting I want you to do please. Go to you 25 most played songs and I want you to list the top 10 songs only. Here are mine. Breathe(2am)- Anna Nalick- 118 Plays Wordplay- Jason Mraz- 118 Plays Carnival Town- Norah Jones- 109 Plays Loose Control- Missy Elliot- 108 Plays Sunrise- Norah Jones- 101 Plays These Words- Natasha Bedingfield- 76 Plays White Houses- Vanessa Carlton-67 Plays Don't Know Why- Norah Jones- 61 Plays Wreck Of The Day- Anna Nalick- 51 Plays Mr. Brightside- The Killers- 49 Plays I think you can tell alot about a person from their top 10 music choices. I dunno though, what do you think? You know down in Miami, FL. There are these cheerleading gyms known as Top Gun All Stars, and Miami Elite. The rivalry between these 2 gyms is impressive. I wish we had rivalry like this, but the same goes with GA All Stars, and Ace All Stars. They hate each othe

I was thinking today. I love the South, really I do. In all reality I feel this is the only place I can call my home. Even with the Baptists, the hicks, and so on that live here. I love it. The culture, weather, and the FOOD... It feels like home, not GA nessecarily, but my real home is Wake Forest, NC. The boonies, it's beautiful up there. I have always grown up on a ranch or farm. We are selling ours and move out next week, because my mom has cancer. And I really will miss it. Even though at times it really annoys me. I love it here, it's so beautiful, silent, and just feels right. And we live in this big 5000 squarefoot southern estate home. On the far end of the property, with these 2 story columns that go up, huge porch, white, and a white fence. I shall miss it. I will live in another home like this one of these days. I find southern style plantation homes what are white with huge columns, and azaleas around with crate myrtal trees and bradford pears. To be the most beaut

My family is going to have it hard. I mean come on people, I'm gay. I love boys, all kinds of bois. Especially hot latin bois. Back to the topic, my family is going to have it hard. They are strictly conservative, Mormon, latin, and just plain out hate gay people. My mom always disses them. I feel sorry for them, but they are in for a nasty wake up call. I will wait and save them the pain for a few more years. Straight girls also make me laugh. They always give me their numbers at work. I will be walking and they will like shove it into my pocket or hand it to me. A lot of them are attractive as well. I just am not interested. I am waiting for the day a hot guy hands me his number. Woah, that will be the day I am sure. Another thing thats funny. How do all the gay guys know at school that I'm gay. I mean seriously most people think I;m straight, and just a metro. They all know, and I am not sure how. Thing is, all of them are about 5-6, super gay, not attractive, and just ew.

I live investing, and I love the stock market. It just gives me such a thrill. I don't know why, but it just does, and I love it. Same thing with business. I shall never work for any corporation. It's not in my blood, plus I hate being told what to do. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Peter Jenning's has passed. I loved him, he was an amazing man. I hope this isn't a case of death comes in three's. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Have you ever noticed how you and your parents all at one time got along, and everything was great between you. Like you always wanted to be near them, and be like them. I don't feel like that anymore, and in fact I haven't felt like that in years. Now instead of being around family since I was 15, I have always gone places with friends instead of the family vacation. I don't know though, people always tell me I'm her spitting image, and I have so many personality traits similar to hers. Minus the loving horses, and the redneck lifestyle. I got her business savy, brains, and drop dead good looks(okay so I might be exaggerating), but I just can't stand to be in the same room with that woman anymore. I love her to death, but we are just to different people. She wants me to stay at home and live for a few years after high school. I don't want to I want to move out permanantly. Plus our new house is so much smaller then our new one. I love her though, even though sh

I had this friend who lived in Baton Rouge, LA. His name was Kolby Jon Sellars, a rising model/actor. I had known him for several years, talked to him on and off. I would see him when my Mom would go down there for work, on occasion. I had tried messaging him some over the last few months. No, response from him. I was like. " Well I guess I pissed him off." Comes to find out after googling his name, that he passed away April 24, 2005. From a car accident in Baton Rouge, LA. I need to send my condolensenses to his family down there. It was a shock to me, and it has just now started sinking in. That fact that he is nolonger her, and also how vulnerable we are to the swife of death. How many times in your life, have your nearly slipped, fell, or almost ran into something that could have ended you life. His time is up, and I wish him well on the other side. My prayers are with the Sellars Family, this moment in time. Please make yours also with them, it is onething for a child to

A was reading another blog tonight. It reminded me, of a dear friend I lost 2 years ago last April. Her name was Amanda, she was killed by a drunk driver. I miss her terribly. I would tell my heart to her, we were undivideable. Almost everyone thought we were twins, or going out. It was funny we were always seen together. I miss running my hand through her hair. it was so soft, and she had these dark caramel eyes. And smooth baby skin, but that's a half latina for you. Just beautiful. Also that night her brother was killed April 1, 2003. I remember going to the hospital. Another good friend at the time, asked her, " What's it like Amanda, dying I mean." She said, " It's Sweet Misery." This is a quote that has stuck with me, my entire life. Her father passed away that year from a heart attack, and I know it's from a broken heart. Her mother now lives in a small mountain Chalet in Chatanooga. By herself. No family, I call her on occasion to see how she

Wow, tonight I did something, that is very un-Tragedy like. I smoked pot for aout the 6th time this month. I don't know why i do it. It just releaves some of this stress. I just for some reason puts in a fake moment in my sicken perception of reality. I mean I know these things aren't happening while I do it, but I just keep wanting it. It helps me cope with things in life iI suppose, gives me a false sense of feeling security. Truthfully I never regret it though. I smoked it about 3 hours ago, so the effects are still slightly there. But I am able to think and focus close to my normal level. And I did research moderate use of marijuana have been shown to have no devasting, nor any healthy benefits. In all reality moderate use of 1 time a week won't hurt you. But I know can't keep this up. If you had asked me a year if I saw myself where I am today. I would have said with a hardy, yet serious laugh, " Nope, fuck drugs, they aren't my cup of tea." Seems li

I had a guy over tonight. We tried kissing he was fine with that. Then I decided to go for the kill. WTF does he do, he freaks out after talking all this smack. Tells me he is nervous and not ready. I misunderstood all the signals he was giving off. I mean have these plastic handcuffs that sit in the top corner of my bed. He said lets use them. So I went in, and he just freaks out. We talk about it decide we wanna try again, and he chickens out again. We talked it over, I am ready however I don't think he is. Sigh. However first kisses are amazing. I miss Duke. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

While I sit waiting to go out to eat with family, I'm going to write a short entry. I had tumbling last night which went as usual sucky. My mental blocks are putting so much strain on me, that I have lost almost all tumbling. I used to be so gifted. One of my coaches pulled me aside, and gave me this motivating speechi which worked for all of 5 minutes. But hell it helped if you know what I mean. Bois, bois all types of bois. Black, white, Puerto Rican, Chinese bois. I want them shined polished and sent to my front door. Puerto Rican bois, yummy. Cheers Loves, Tragedy