A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

There was something wrong with Greg today. Something very wrong and I don't know what. I asked him when we went out to lunch, he acted like everything thing was just breezy. I don't understand him, but I could just see it in his eyes, and in his face. Then we met up with some of his friend including Blake. I asked him if he thought anything was wrong with Greg, and he just shrugged it off like maybe he wasn't feeling 100%. I just know something is wrong with Greg. I can feel it, I can see it in his eyes, but I don't understand why he doesn't say anything. I don't even understand what it could be? I love him, I think I really do love him. I know he feels the same. Just his movements when he's around me, his actions, he hasn't said it. However I know we feel the same way, and so far we have had a great relationship. He's not answering his phone, he's not on AIM. I am very sick right now thinking of this. When we left Lenox, and went to get his ca

I just found the gayest running shoes on Ebay litterally see for yourself....

I haven't really decided yet. But I have alot to say in this post about nothing really. Just some updates, and new FYI. -I am going to be going to Miami, FL in June of next year. I have been accepted to work as a staff member of a major cheerleading organization at one of their camps. I can thank my friends on Top Gun All Stars, and Encore All Stars for that one. -Butt Boy has been accepted to UCLA to study business, and finances. He leaves me in August, but we have 8 months. - My Mom is doing wonderful with her cancer treatments. Her color of her skin has returned, and her eyes just look so alive. I love that natural therapy doctor in Augusta. -I failed math and science this semester... Looks like Tragedy's going to summer school, or online school for a while. -I've had business ideas to start when I was 18, but one of them has the most potential and I can do now. I started it a few weeks, and I got my first client this after noon. It's a shitty job, and I mean that in

Butt Boy and I often go into Atlanta. Mid Town to be more exact to the gay friendly stores, restaurants and hangouts. There are mainly gays in there. I had noticed before that he often got stares from guys, those stares that say, " Damn boi you are fine." I never really noticed them at me, until today we were out today. Butt Boy tells me he feels uncomfortable when guys stare at me. I laughed and told him they only stare at him, and never me. Apparently we get alot of those stares that say, " God damn they are hot and couple, how did they get so lucky." Seperatly me and him get tons of those ," Damn I want you sexy." On another note, in reference to the previous post. Yes, we did the nasty. I am not going into detail just because I feel like this is between me and him only and noone else needs to know all the details. But to cut the first time short. It takes forever to get into the mood until we're drunk as hell, then we have to look it up online on

I am almost 18, and have had 17 Christmas Holidays on this planet. My family always either goes to NC, or Charleston, SC to celebrate with every other God for-saken member of my family. A dozen or so kids under 6, about 8 6-12 years olds, and about 9 15-20 year olds, all crammed onto my great grandfathers massive planation home that looks like it should have been torn down eons ago. Over the years I've grown tired of the holidays. Starting at about 13 I guess. I started getting annoyed with relatives, and their antics on life, and always giving me damn advice that is outdated by about 50 years. I grew sick of the constant bickering between me and my cousins, and people they claim I have some relationship to, but I don't care how much they say that. There is no way in hell I am related to some of those country circus bimbos. Stevie Wayne, Bobby Sue Tate, Marry Lynn, Uncle Earl, and any other redneck name you can think of and I have a relative that goes by it. They annoy me all o

2005 and the last 3 years have been hard on my family, and me. I am looking forward to 2006 more then anything, especially my big ONE-EIGHT in March. I was outside today, just a few minutes ago thinking about this year. I looked up and saw this... I didn't notice till I just uploaded there that there is even a fainter rainbow near the top. I have a feeling The Big Man, will be looking out for me this year. I think 2006 will going to be the start of something good, this rainbow was there for a second then it dissappearred about 2 minutes later. I just had enough time to run into my room, and grab my camera. Merry Christmas to you all

Butt Boy and I went out last night into Atlanta. We went to an extremely nice restaurant in Atlanta, where coats are required. Then we went to a performance at the Fox. While at dinner we exchanged gifts. I gave him the LV Wallet, and he gave gave me my gift. That boy got us matching Fossil watches. He has such perfect taste. He got mine in blue, which is my favorite colour. Although I know my LV wallet, can't match his brand new car given to him by his parents. I know he loves it none theless. Cheers, T And Merry Christmas to you all:)

Towards the end of January, I will be entering my first 10k race. After much thought if I should enter the 5k or 10k, I have decided on the 10k. Just mainly because the 3.1 miles of a 5k, are nothing to me. My daily run is three miles. A 10k is going to prove to be something of a challenge for me. My best Jog to date is 5 miles in 58 minutes. Which isn't bad I don't think. However I am gonna increase by half a mile a week, because currently I can do 4 at about a10 minutes pace each. So by the end of January I will be able to do 6 miles, and I'll just tough out the final two. I am very excited I wish Butt Boy would do it with me, but he goes to the gym and works out and get's buff. I am a runner, and hate going to the gym. I cheer and run, thats my routine;) The post from this morning was taken down my request from Butt Boy.

I'm gonna give you the run down on the blogs to the right. Why I enjoy them, and why they are there. I'm gonna do my top 5 blogs. Naked Boy Chronicles - This by far is my favorite blog on the internet, and has been since I made this blog. I really his enjoy his stories, and his opinions on shows. When I first came accross this blog, in June I spent hours reading through the archives it's that addictive. Plus he's very caring and helpful from my expierience. Runner Susan - This blog comes in a close second. She's a hot running MILF from somewhere in Texas, who's posts make me laugh. She is sarcastic, to the point, but does it in a friendly caring way. I love it, and I eat this blog up. All Hooked Up - I don't know where to start with this one. I love it dearly. The writer of this blog comes very close in many cases by skidding the lines of what is acceptable to the majority of society. He is blunt, to the point, and doesn't give a rats ass about what you

I am stealing this concept from Susan because I have nothing to blog about... I could get used to a world filled with... -Running in the cold, where the cold air wouldn't enter my nose and burn the hell out of my esophagous. -Where cancer could be cured with an injection. -Where I could get Butt Boy the greatest gift in the world, instead of a lowly LV wallet. -Where my Ipod never fracked up while running, so I wouldn't loose valuable time, hitting the hell out of it. -Where Battlestar Galactica ran a new episode every Friday night 52 weeks of the year. -Where noone got in my car changed the radio station I was listening to. This drives me insane. - Where the next door neighbors dog didn't bark 24/7!!! -Where I could rock the suburbs... I just realized this sounds like a Wal Greens commercials

Apparently I am the only queer in the state of Georgia who has not yet seen Brokeback Mountain. I swear even the gays at my high school, and local schools go crazy for it. Here's a couple from a rival school a few miles away, they did this... Butt Boy thinks we should to.

One of the things I dislike the most, is being touched. I hate it, and I don't know why. I have been like this for years. If someone would come up behind me and tap me on the shoulder I would turn around and just elbow them, without meaning to, or if someone touched my arm, I would move it out and arm them, and even worse when people hug me I just give them like this pathetic little hug. I don't like being in crowds of people where I run into them, this drives me insane. I'm just as jittery as a June bug, and for no apparent reason. Butt Boy and I went to Midtown today, and stopped by OutWrite to get some coffee. I was in line just recieved my order, and he comes up behind me from somewhere. He gently puts his hands around me, I drop my coffee, and elbow him in the stomach. Just as fast as lighting, and everyone in there turns as stares at me. I even had the nerve to let out a low AHHH, as he did that. He's on the ground on all fours holding his stomach, short on breat

I have not stepped foot inside a Mormon Church for almost a year, my Mom goes every week. I just have gotten to the point where I can't stand listening to the Bishop. Everytime they seem to indirectly point out all my flaws, the major one being Gay. They seem to somehow make me feel like crap, and I largely disagree with the conservative nature of the Church. However a part of me still have deep-seeded roots in the Church, as long as I live there is always gonna be a part of me that misses it. I know I can never return to the Church once they know the truth, unless we get some new radical Presidents who accepts gays. I still have respect for the Church, for 16 years it was the largest part of my life, then one day I decided that I was not gonna be returning to the Church. I remember growing up always wanting to be one of the 60,000 missionaires at any given moment on the planet, that the Church has. I want to go to France, Greece, or Spain. I loved our missionaires we had over the

This article about children mutilating Barbie is actually very funny. The experts find it disturbing, but I find it hilarious. I used to destroy my friends barbies growing up. I remember once I had a dinosaur I ripped its head off, and then Barbie's head off. And melted the Barbie head onto the dinosaur body, and dinosaur head onto the Barbie body. Click Here To Read

AIM Convo With Me And Butt Boy Butt Boy: Hey cutie what are you up to Me: nm just playing with my bird, trying to get it to talk Butt Boy: I didn't know your bird could talk it must be very talented Me: naw dude, it can't talk yet, I just got it to the point where I can open the cage door and take it out without it flying out like a pshyco Butt Boy: I bet if I opened the cage door it would pop out like a pyscho Me: I'm sure it wouldn't even come out, it hardly knows you Butt Boy: I guess I'm gonna have to start handling your bird then ;) Me: You can try, but it might bite you, he's a bitch Butt Boy: wow your bird talks, and bites, I thought it could only spit;) Me: babe birds have beaks they can't.... oh i feel like a dumbass Butt Boy: hehehehehehe thats why I love you, your so naive

So my Mom bought some delicious sugar cookies this weekend at the grocery store. I've been eating them like hot cakes, thinking in 3 or 4 of them there were about 200 calories. Well I just looked at the label and there are 100 calories in them apiece.... Yeah this sucks Also I have a new addiction Runners World ... Yeah, I've been pouring through their articles and forums for hours now, tons of information....

I admire Steve Jobs, the CEO of Apple who was brought on a few years ago, and did a radical reformation of the Apple Corporation. Since he has been there sales have gone out the ass, and the company is a modern day must have status symbol for any of their products... EX. Ipod, Ibook, Powerbook... The only question I have for your is... WHY the hell do you include those damn little black earphone covers in the Ipod headphones case? Those things are a pain in the ass to put on, and if your ass manages to get them on there, they go missing in about 2 days. And for some reason with each pair of headphones, Apple somehow believes these little black bastards will last you for months, so they have the nerve to include two pair of them. This is my third pair of Ipod Headphones in the last year, and within a week the black bastards have disappeared. Revealing my Ipod's sexy silver bubble butt of a head.... For those of you who have no clue what I speak of, please observe to the left.

I'm having a hard time accepting that it's December 19th, roughly 2 weeks away from 2006. It just doesn't seem right, this year has passed by so quickly. It seems it should be summer to me, and I don't understand why I feel like this. It doesn't feel like the holidays, it doesn't feel like in three months to the day I am gonna be 18, it doesn't feel like my junior year is almost over, it doesn't feel like I have accomplished jack crap, it doesn't feel like I am dating anyone, it doesn't feel like summer and fall ever happened, it just is all one big blur. I don't understand why?

Yeah so, on average women use 15,000 words a day, while men use about 7,000.... Great, men are verbally impaired! Go Me!

Yeah so, Kathy Griffin is coming to Columbus, GA in May. Thats the closest she's gonna to be to Atlanta, so I bought me and Butt Boy tickets to go and see her. I can't wait, only part I dread is the hour and a half drive to Columbus, GA. I'm gonna call my gay male cheerleader friends down there, and see if they wanna go see her as well;) I love you Kathy...

Ever since Madonna's single, " Hung Up" came out I have been avoiding the song. Because once I know I am lured into it I won't be out of it for 3 more months. Well I can no longer resist the urge to listen to the song everytime it comes on the radio. Instead of changing the radio station tonight, I listened to it. I was in heaven. I pulled into the Circuit City parking lot, got out, went in and bought Confessions On A Dance Floor. Now I can't put it down. It will be like this for another three months. Just like when American Life came out three years ago. Damn You Madonna!!!! I can't even resist you...

I have recieved alot of emails asking me what my political affiliation is. Finally I have decided to answer this after much thought. I don't really have a political affiliation, just because my beliefs are over such a wide spectrum. But I will say this. If George W. Bush, and Hillary Clinton did the nasty. I would be the baby that would pop out. Ex. I did support the war in Afghanistan, because the Taliban was there. However I do not support the War In Iraq, because when terrorists entered Iraq when Saddam was there. He would kill them and drive them out, now that he is out of power, it has become a breeding ground for them. Ex. I not support abortion, because to me it's murder. But these Liberals that support it I have one question for you. You are against frying a murder on death row, yet you let the innocence of an unborn child be destroyed. I do not understand this please explain it to me... And if abortion is continued to be allowed I would like the upmost restrictions pl

I truthfully felt tonight that Rebecca, should have won the Apprentice. Then I was even more pissed at the end when Randal, said, " No, you should only hire one, this is THE Apprentice, not Apprenti." I didn't like Randal much anyway, however from the the beggining of the show I was expecting Adam, Rebecca, or Alla to be in the final two. I never thought it would be Randal... Ugh, I love Rebbeca, plus she's beautiful!

Just found out this Blog was nominated for BEST Gay Blog of the year. So I suggest you vote. You can do it here . I am in the Best Gay Blog catagory... Also vote for Naked Boy Chronicles in Reviewed Blog catagory. If you vote email me at Tragedyguy@gmail.com , and ummm I don't know I'll think of something.

Me and my Butt Boy, Greg, decided to head to Atlanta tonight. We head to OutWrite, Atlanta's Gay Cafe and Bookstore.... The thing with this cafe is every kind of gay is in there, from the Butch as Lesbian log cutters, to the fashion trenty hot hunks, to the gym bunnies, you get the picture... Well we order our usual coffee, and sit down at a table talking and one of Greg's friends I have never met is there with named Blake. We'll we have been there for a while a group of guys 3 of them come and sit at the table next to us. Don't bother us at first then the cell phone rings. we hear " I'm a Barbie Girl in a Barbie World.... so and so" as loud as the god damn phone can ring. Then this guy who looks like an old navy commercial gone wrong with the scarf, mulitcolor outfit, and is trying to be *to gay*. Goes in the that classic valley girl gay accent " Oh My Fracking God, Hey Babes." He talked so damn loud. he eventually hangs up. This happens two mo

I have absolutely nothing to blog about so ill just blog something. For Christmas I got Greg and Me, matching LV wallets(thank you Ebay). I got my Mom a 9 hour treatment thing at one of the local spas, and I got my three best girl friends a little lotion and fragrance kit from Bath and Body Works. Yep, everything came off of Ebay the total was 180 dollars, a savings of more then 150. Yes, the LV wallets are the real thing;)

As of this morning my computer monitor is shot... It has this dark green tint that has been appearing now for a few months, but I just turn it one and off and it's fixed. Now thats not the case after looking it up online, and calling the company. They said once it turns permanently green my monitor is shot. There is nothing I can do to fix it, and in about 2 weeks it wont show anything on the screen. It's one of those monitors when LCD's first came out about 4 years ago this Christmas I got it. Well now, I don't have 150 bucks to cash out on a monitor right now. So I have found a used one on ebay for a decent price. So hopefully it will last me a few more months until I can get a new one....

Ever since I was a wee little kid, about 8 years old I discovered the Chronicles ofNarnia. I read the whole series in about a year, and I fell in love with it. Those books to this day remain my favorite series, more so then Harry Potter ever was. I nearly shit in my pants when I found out it was coming to theatres last year. Now that day arrives, and I am skipping school to go see it at the first showing( mainly because it's $3.00 for the first and second of any movie showing during the day) and probably a few more times as well.... YAY

There is a show called the Big Idea with Donny Deutsch, that I watch from time to time. I watch it when they have a good guest on their. Tonight it was about this band of 13 year old girls called, Prussian Blue. Don't be drawn in by their sweetness. They are 13 year old racist bitch blonde shells from hell. They sing about the Aryan Man in their songs, and on the show it had a picture of a Hilter Smiley face T-shirt. I would post it but I can't find it. They basicly hate minorities, other religions, gays, and anyone else who's different. Their lyrics are full of hate. This woman is Lauren Lake, she is a defense attorney. They had this man named Mr. Barret who was all for the band, hated blacks, and kept dissing them on the show. This woman patiently waited then she opened up a Can- Of- Whoop ass on him. She was so awsome . She left this white ass hole from Alabama have it, he was the owner of Skin-Head records. Which of course explains it all. I am very fired up about this

Yesterday morning Greg calls me and tells me is heading to a Rock and Mineral show in North Atlanta. For school for extra credit, and he has noone to go with, plus it was free. I was like sure. We get there, and the show is next week. But there was an Exotic Bird Show, so we decided to go. I feel in love with the parakeets, and I have ended up purchasing 2 of them. They were 5 dollars there. So now I need names for them. They are so pretty.

Theres not 1, not 2, but three dogs somewhere in this neighborhood keeping me awake. I have not gotten any sleep in the past 6 hours due to them barking. If they bark one more time, I am gonna run them over with my car!!!!!

I spend most of my free time with Greg. Going to malls, art galleries, restaurants, cafes, and I have absolutely fallen head over heels for him. He is so fine( guys and girls are crazy for him), intellectual, and just so sweet and caring. He has the body of a God. This afternoon we went to the mall. I bought a cheap AE shirt on sale, and Greg bought some a pair of jeans and a t-shirt from AE on sale. We get to his house and he is like I wanna try it on. We go up to his room, he takes his shirt off( I was in heaven). Then he slides his jeans off slowly, and so sexy looking. Then what do I see....???? Whitey Fucking Tighties, my eyes about jumped out of their sockets. He then goes, "All my boxers were dirty."This just ruined it though. The first time I see my butt boy without pants on and he wears whitey-tighties.... I had on boxers, but he can can settle to see my in a bathing suit... I still love him though... I am just tease him about it forever:)