A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

The spring of 2007 was my final year in cheerleading, but I stayed active. Through the summer I stayed active, but I continued to eat a lot. I kept my weight somehow in a checks and balances... Well August rolls around, and I start college. I was only part time taking 9 credit hours, not a full course load, but a lot on top of my my full time work schedule. I found a way to balance it... September comes, and we move into a new house. It is a beautiful house, only problem it's 30 minutes away from the nearest gym. Frantic I suck it up, and manage to get in the gym 3 days a week. Well I gained a 8 pounds when finals, papers, and work got tough from October-December. Then I leave to backpack Mexico for 3 weeks. It was a great expiereance, and the food was OMG. It was so OMG when I got back on January 11th, I weighed 148... I have continued to eat like a bottomless pig, and this morning my weight hit 150.1 LBS. Not only is this not going to fly, it's going to all go away. My ass lo...

2 nights ago I was editing my template, and I screwed it up... I lost my links, and my favorite template I spent hours figuring out about 2 years ago!

Okay, I 've had the worst 2 days in a long ass time... Here is how it has gone down. Yesterday, I was going to work, and got pulled over for speeding. The cop was nice enough to drop it town from 14 over to 11 over to keep points of my record. Then about 4 hours later I was backing out of the driveway for work, and I ran into a tree now the back of my truck is dinged up to hell. Finally, I went to get gas yesterday, and paid $60 cash inside. After I paid I went to the bathroom, and went back out to my truck. I hopped in, and just drove off. After realizing what I did almost 20 minutes later I went back, and someone had used my gas. They couldn't refund it... Then today I had to be at class at 8AM for a field trip I have been looking forward to for eons. Well what in the damn hell do you think happens? They cancel the trip at 10 AM this morning, and it will be at least 5 months before they can reschedule...( This isn't that bad, I just wanted to go on this trip!) On another ...

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I am 19, going to be 20 in March. I have had one boyfriend in my entire life, and that lasted all of a few weeks. Even more, it was almost 3 years ago. Is that weird? For some reason in the "Gay World", young gays have the extreme habit of always finding the one they love, the one they wanna spend the rest of their life with, and just "THE ONE" in general. They meet some guy within 2 weeks they are boyfriends, within a month it's " I I am not gonna lie, more then anything I want someone to share something with. I want someone to build a future with, and I date people, and I meet people. Some of them are very attractive, others of them not so much, but I do give them a shot. There was one guy I fell for, he was slightly below my tastes, but gos his personality made him seem so hot to me. Then he moved for school after knowing him all of 4 weeks, but yeah... Back to the topic, I just do not find it neccesarry to meet my love at 19. I want that special someone...

Miss me? For I am back, and plan on staying here. For some reason being away from the blogging world just has seemed so odd... Much has been happening these last few months. I was accidently outed by that damn website Myspace.com. There has been a lot of tension in my life. Many tears have been shed, but also the reality of what is can finally settle in. I guess I will just start fresh, with new posts and try to pickup best where I left off... Cheers, T

The time has come for me to close this chapter. A year and a half ago I was in the closest, in a small conservative town, roughly 45 minutes outside of Atlanta. When I created this blog I was very naive to the workings of the world, and I still am. However over the course of the last year or so, I have gained much insight into the workings of gay society. It is a society with many ins and outs, many secrets, many legacies to be written, and many wanting to do harm. However this is ot the case with the vast majority of gays, they want to do good, and that is it. I was once very closed minded to all sorts of gays, from the lesbians, to the femmes is what I assume they shall be called. However I opened up alot to them, and learned they all play their part. Especially the lesbians, they are like gay men, without ever having to worry about being hit on. Another plus is one has became very close to me... The main reasons for me ending this is this. I once wrote some of my deepest thoughts ...