A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

Last night I think I went on the most meaningful date yet. Instead of dating someone who was in all reality a total loser. This guy had some things going for him, and some not so much. However the main thing that set this guy apart was the fact, that he actually took me somewhere nice and PAID!!! I have grown very accustomed to dating broke morons who work as waiter, or at Starbucks, and have all the aspirations but do nothing to achieve them. This guy manages a pizza restaurant, but he is also in school. He is very attractive. We started out by going to Einstiens, and I have never been to this place before. It is very nice, and very expensive. I was looking over the menu, and not wanting to break his bank, nor send him into bankruptcy I decided on something small. He saw me apparently looking over the prices, and said get anything I want. So I ended up getting the Grilled Chicken Tarragon which was actually delicious I might say. We talked waiting on the food, and he had lots to say....

There is nothing more irritating then car lots. I thought people were just being over dramatic, and crap but really these people have it down to science on how to irritate and annoy the fuck out of me. So, yesterday with the approval from my Mom, a 97 Mustang to trade, and 3000 in cash to put down. I go and look at the Prius, and to tell you the truth I have fallen in love with them. I never would have thought a hybrid thing would have been so nice inside and out. It drove very well, and had far more kick then I thought it would have. I put about 50 miles on that thing, driving it from the lot to the bank, then up 10 miles 85. I drove like a damn dream, nothing like a Mustang GT, but still it drove very nicely. So, I end up getting approved with the trade in, and the cash down. My baby mustang is worth about 2500 trade in, so I guess it's not that bad. Well I had 5500 to put down total the price of the car, was 25k roughly. So then I get approved and this and that. Everything was...

My Mom and me this morning were sitting around the table listening to the News. I have not been watching the news lately these last few months, and one reason is it makes me uncomfortable. We were discussing the world issues mainly in Isreal. My Mom says something along the lines of, " Yeah, those Guerillas attacked the Isreal troops..." I dropped her off at the airport, and then came home. I was sitting in the living room watching the News again, and they came on. They said something similar to, " The Guerillas were hiding in basements, houses, and in trees. They have guns and ads attacking people, and killing them.... so and so..." Lil Bro looks at me and says, " Why are Gorillas attacking people." He is thinking of Gorillas like the apes. I have been very tense these last few days, and this just made me laugh. He just looked at me. He didn't understand that the Guerillas are actually a rogue and radical faction of a government. I replied, " ...

Last night I believe I went on one of the worst dates of my life. Not worst date, just the guy was so blah. He was cute so I said yeah. As soon as I started sitting down to eat, he just talked my ear off. I didn't say a damn word. On top of it all he kept talking Bull Shit. When I say bullshit I don't mean topping his stories off to make them sound impressive. I mean straight out bullshit. I will leave his wackass stories for tomarrow when I have more time to blog. On another note I got my first Tattoo. It is an ellipsis, on my back right shoulder. I have wanted one, but I thought forever what I wanted. This no something on me, this is a part of me. I like it for that, and I believe this will be the only one I ever get. I might post some pics if I can get some decent ones of my back. I want to blog more but I'm about to turn into the living dead I'm so tired. Cheers, T

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So, I have purchased Anna Nalicks new CD, Wreck Of The Day 06. It is actually a very good CD, and I do enjoy. I love the remake of Wreck Of The Day the best. Also I bought the new Dixie Chicks CD this week. I love their song, " Not Ready To Make Nice." On another note though. I am happy to announce I will be graduating 5 months early in December of this year. What I want to do in life I really don't know? I want to go into business, but as for college I really don't have a clue. I've decided not to persue a relationship with this older gentlemen. Not because of his age, but because what we have in common is not enough to sustain a lasting relationship. Cheers, T

I am going on a date tonight with a really decent guy, and his looks are just wow. I thought he was like in his mid 20's. In fact it turns out it is more like 32... While this guy is great and everything I am not sure how I feel about the age difference. What would others think? Is this something worth persueing?...

I think last night I went on the worst date, in the entire history of Man. I swear this guy is not all that and a bag of chips in the looks department, but he was so sweet. I decided to give it a shot, mainly because after I have gotten to know people who aren't super hot. Their personality makes me look at them, and go, " Oh, they are smoking motherfracking hot..." So we were originally supposed to go and watch the fireworks. They were moved to yesterday due to rain on the 4th. Well, it started raining so I just meet up with him at his place. I wanted to go somewhere, but he demaned that we stay there. He ended up having some movie from Blockbuster called The Lost Angel. It was a decent movie, but the whole time he was getting so touchy and feely that it wasn't even funny. He held my hand, and touch my hair, and while I know this is him trying to be sweet. His ass needed to back off before I busted a cap in his ass. He offered me nothing to eat, nor drink. I was star...

I think of my favorite actresses is Amy Jo Johnson. Not just actress but she is a very talented artist. She was the original Pink Power Ranger back in the early 90's. I have both of her albums and she has very haunting music. So beautiful and tranguil, and similar to that of Anna Nalick. I have been a huge fan of hers from Felicity, to this new series on ABC Family she in called Wild Fire. She is such an under represented actress, and musician.... Plus on top of it all she is beautiful as hell!

I go into Atlanta all of the time. One of the main reasons is in hopes of finding true romance. I have no desire for a hookup, and I guess that being with someone just makes sex enjoyable for me. I know this because I haven't had sex in 7 months. I miss Greg, and I have foregiven him in my mind for his little advantures with Blake. Plus he was good in bed as far as I can tell, although he being my only expierience so far. I miss his touch, and his voice, but most of all I think I miss his smell. He was a good person, and I know he feels bad for what he did. I go into Atlanta, trying to find someone to take his place in my mind. Trying to find someone to keep my company. However I am starting to feel my motives are different then many people there.... However I got an email from him this afternoon, and it reads.... Hey, I am aware you may not wish to read this. You may just delete, and this will be a loss of my emotions and time. You know I regret what I did to you. You treated me s...