My fellow readers, bloggers, and whomever reads this. This Tragic chapter of my life is almost over. I am emotionally, and physically drained, and cannot think straight. I am in tears in and out of the day, with a family that doesn't understand. They sway back and forth as if they themselves were wheat stems in the wind. I was outed Saturday night. How? I do not want to go into detail. However, when I did comeout it was supposed to be planned. This was unexpected and it's killing me inside... Having a Mormon mother, and family is hard. At first she was understanding of the whole thing. Now, it is as if something has sucked the force of love, and understanding out of her. She is constantly in a state of tears. Asking, " Why have I chosen this for myself?" She believes I am going to burn in hell, and that this choice is her fault. She keeps blaming it on herself, and thinks somewhere in my childhood I was molested... She goes in and out of these moods, where she is hap...
I had All Star Camp today from 4-9 then again tomarrow and Wensday. Not much to say there except DRAMA. I hate Drama. Any where I go it seems to follow about people gossiping, about something years ago. It Tends to annoy me but, whatever! I am tired Loves, Cheers Loves, Tragedy
Greg called be Friday night and asked to meet me at some place an hour away. I drive out there and he's in this restaurant eating alone. He had this look on his face like someone died. I sat down ordered my water, and he told me to sit he had something to tell me. I did and I was concerned. He looks at me and says, " You know Blake?" I replied with a yeah, and in the lowest tone of voice he lowers his head and says, " I slept with him a few times, while we've been dating." With that I got up without saying a word,, walked to my car, and balledmy eyes out for almost 30 minutes, before speeding home. He called me, but I haven't been answering. He sent me and email where he explained he was caught up in the heat of the moment, and we drunk. He then goes that he's sorrry and this has been eating away at him all week. He sais it would never happen again, and he's sorry and wants to continue dating. I don't know what to do. I've been crying f...
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