The Sinners Saint
Greg called be Friday night and asked to meet me at some place an hour away. I drive out there and he's in this restaurant eating alone. He had this look on his face like someone died. I sat down ordered my water, and he told me to sit he had something to tell me.
I did and I was concerned. He looks at me and says, " You know Blake?" I replied with a yeah, and in the lowest tone of voice he lowers his head and says, " I slept with him a few times, while we've been dating." With that I got up without saying a word,, walked to my car, and balledmy eyes out for almost 30 minutes, before speeding home. He called me, but I haven't been answering. He sent me and email where he explained he was caught up in the heat of the moment, and we drunk. He then goes that he's sorrry and this has been eating away at him all week. He sais it would never happen again, and he's sorry and wants to continue dating.
I don't know what to do. I've been crying for 2 days. Something like this I would have never forseen. It hurts. My stomachs in knots being cute by about 12 steak knives. I threw up on the way home that night. I don't understand why. I can't even begin to put into words how I feel. I feel so used, and abused. I just want to close my eyes, wish it away and forget about it. He violated me, and my trust with him. I loved him, but i never saw this. How could I see this? I can't stop crying, I don't know if I should forgive him, but part of my says kill the bastard and leave him hanging on wit now hope of ever seeing me again. Should I cut the string, and leave him drifting? I'm a a wreck right now, and I can't concentrate my thoughts I have noone who can help to turn to for advice. I need sleep. I've been weeping in my own self pitty for him all day.
I did and I was concerned. He looks at me and says, " You know Blake?" I replied with a yeah, and in the lowest tone of voice he lowers his head and says, " I slept with him a few times, while we've been dating." With that I got up without saying a word,, walked to my car, and balledmy eyes out for almost 30 minutes, before speeding home. He called me, but I haven't been answering. He sent me and email where he explained he was caught up in the heat of the moment, and we drunk. He then goes that he's sorrry and this has been eating away at him all week. He sais it would never happen again, and he's sorry and wants to continue dating.
I don't know what to do. I've been crying for 2 days. Something like this I would have never forseen. It hurts. My stomachs in knots being cute by about 12 steak knives. I threw up on the way home that night. I don't understand why. I can't even begin to put into words how I feel. I feel so used, and abused. I just want to close my eyes, wish it away and forget about it. He violated me, and my trust with him. I loved him, but i never saw this. How could I see this? I can't stop crying, I don't know if I should forgive him, but part of my says kill the bastard and leave him hanging on wit now hope of ever seeing me again. Should I cut the string, and leave him drifting? I'm a a wreck right now, and I can't concentrate my thoughts I have noone who can help to turn to for advice. I need sleep. I've been weeping in my own self pitty for him all day.
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