The Mormon Church
I have not stepped foot inside a Mormon Church for almost a year, my Mom goes every week. I just have gotten to the point where I can't stand listening to the Bishop. Everytime they seem to indirectly point out all my flaws, the major one being Gay. They seem to somehow make me feel like crap, and I largely disagree with the conservative nature of the Church. However a part of me still have deep-seeded roots in the Church, as long as I live there is always gonna be a part of me that misses it. I know I can never return to the Church once they know the truth, unless we get some new radical Presidents who accepts gays. I still have respect for the Church, for 16 years it was the largest part of my life, then one day I decided that I was not gonna be returning to the Church.
I remember growing up always wanting to be one of the 60,000 missionaires at any given moment on the planet, that the Church has. I want to go to France, Greece, or Spain. I loved our missionaires we had over the years. We had one of the Sisters from Thailand she was my favorite, she would just come by, and chat for hours on end. We woul always take her and the other sister out to eat on Monday nights. The Brothers were just as fun, I always loved the monthly paintball tournaments we had. They could kick some serious ass. I will always wonder how they are doing, one of these days I might just find out.
The reason I bring this up, is tonight I drove by the Church. They were having some sort of mini carnival for Christmas. I stopped by, and talked with some of the people I haven't seen in a long time. They truly are good people, deep down inside their hearts. But God Damn they all drive minivans, Mormon Moms don't work, and if they do 99% of them teach piano lessons, and they bake constant cookies..... Erg...
For some reason I miss it.
Also I found out of the guys from my days in the Church who was a few years older then me " Came Out". He has been referred to the Mormon Conversion program EverGreen, I feel for him. If I could say one thing to him it would be, " That's the pot calling the keddle black."
I remember growing up always wanting to be one of the 60,000 missionaires at any given moment on the planet, that the Church has. I want to go to France, Greece, or Spain. I loved our missionaires we had over the years. We had one of the Sisters from Thailand she was my favorite, she would just come by, and chat for hours on end. We woul always take her and the other sister out to eat on Monday nights. The Brothers were just as fun, I always loved the monthly paintball tournaments we had. They could kick some serious ass. I will always wonder how they are doing, one of these days I might just find out.
The reason I bring this up, is tonight I drove by the Church. They were having some sort of mini carnival for Christmas. I stopped by, and talked with some of the people I haven't seen in a long time. They truly are good people, deep down inside their hearts. But God Damn they all drive minivans, Mormon Moms don't work, and if they do 99% of them teach piano lessons, and they bake constant cookies..... Erg...
For some reason I miss it.
Also I found out of the guys from my days in the Church who was a few years older then me " Came Out". He has been referred to the Mormon Conversion program EverGreen, I feel for him. If I could say one thing to him it would be, " That's the pot calling the keddle black."
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