A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

Okay so I check my emails at night. GenerallyI have a few from some guys, wanting to chat. Well I always click their pictures first, and this one guy had a link in his siggy to his myspace. So I went to look at his Myspace Pictures and I saw this hilarious one. I just got back from running, and saw this I had to post it.

Well back in April I just one day decided I wanted to start jogging to loose weight. We'll at first I could hated it and stuck with it suprisingly, because I have done this before and stopped a week later. Well now its alsmost 6 months later and I can now jog 3.5 miles in 40 minutes. Which is not bad, because 6 months ago I could not run half a mile. My Mom the other day came home with a nice little suprise for me. She bought me a pedometer, not a nice one but still I love it. Even though I know I run 3.5 miles and the damn thing says 2 miles. I guess that what you get when you buy the Wal-Mart 6 dollars one LOL. I tested the distance in my car. The circle of our subdivision is 1.2 miles for one lap I do three at the current moment. So you get 3.6 roughly. Back on topic. I have never given a thought to a marathon run. But my Mom came home this afternoon, and she had signed me up for the our city's annual 5k Run. I love her for this. I now have something I can do, and I need to...

My Mom is at the doctor this morning recieving Chemo, and radiation. She got into a clinical trial for a drug which look promising. She started this last week, and I did pray like someone suggested. We kinda had a weird night last night, after practice she picked me up. We went out to eat at Ihop, and to say it was just one of those times I miss. Me and her rarely have time to spend together anymore. We talked last night, and I just feel better about alot of minor things in my life. But I have a feeling she will be just fine. This is just a speed bump in the road of life. Although she is scheduled for surgery sometime in November or Christmas. They need to shrink they tumor down some before they can remove it. Also my wrist is doing alot better. It still is kinda sore. But I can move it in almost any direction without pain. Just kinda sore when I am at practice. Cheers, Tragedy

My new neighborhood is a bitch. For one there is this dog accross the street that never shuts up. I mean never, all night it wakes me up. This little 25 pounds mutt, keeps my up all night long. I have complained to them very nicely about the dog. You know they said , " Know one has ever complained about it before now..." I was like screw you woman. The dog is barking this very hour keeping me awake. Also we have outside cat named Nicholas. I noticed these wierd wounds on him. At a closer look it's BB gun bullets marks in his side. Someone has fired them at point blank range they were just to close together to be shot from far away. If that cat was hit he would have ran. I think they did it a second time. I think it's the neighbors from hell with the dog. Their kid has this BB Gun he is always shooting things with. If I catch him shooting my cat I'm calling the police. He seems like the type of kid who get a joy out of lighting small animals on fire, and then pokin...

So I went back to the club tonight, but Sean felt it was best I leave about 11PM. I have been home for about an hour Tay was like whatever. I did enjoy it, but everyone somehow knew I was new to this whole seen. Sean brought his BF of 5 years who I have never met. Alejandro is this half Columbian half white stud, which reinforces the fact latins are the hottest. Sean told a few guys to fuck off when he saw me in a rut, so did Alejandro. They do have tickets to Club Chaperel in Atlanta for their Halloween party, and said they could get me in. I don't know what they are going as, but I knew I wanted to go dressed as Spider-Man. I just ran a search on ebay for Spider-Man Costume, look what came up. Yes, of course when I type in Spider-Man Costume the first thing which comes up is that thong thing. The type of costume I was looking for is to the bottom. Which BTW, I have bought, but I need to loose about 5 pounds. grrrrr..... But anyway how the hell does anyone get " Spider-Man Co...

I saw this funny little thing in someones myspace and liked it. You just make a random about things you prefere to others. I'll give it a shot. Just make a list about random things about yourself, like what you like or do etc... I think President Bush is cute. I love Jazz music above all other genres. I think Latins are the hottest of all races. I hate to be touched. I secretly love to watch ballets. I've always wanted to secretly take up dancing. I have smoked weed, but it's not all that great. I have a crush on my best friend. I am amused when girls hand me their numbers. I look best dressed in blue. I love the colour blue. I already have my future kids named picked out. I could never live anywhere, but the South. I hate the color green. I own no clothes the color green. I don't know how to spell color, is it color or colour? I do both ways. I adore Norah Jones and Diana Krall. I really want to get Gavin Degraw ...

Okay so I am going back to the same club this Friday. T can get me back in, but this time instead of him ditching me. I have called really the only gay guy I know that I trust. He is gonna meet us there, and he's gonna be my club partner. He'll keep an out for me, he always has. On another note I have a profile on XY. I have alot of people who contact me. Alot of what I refere to as non-attractive folks, and people who are 10 years plus my senior. They get pissed when I tell them politely I am not interested. So eventually I block them. Well this one guy is 29, overweight, and ugly. He keeps telling me I am closed minded, arrogant, and stupid. That I am stupid for basing opinions on looks, but isn't that the first rule of attraction, looks? That I will never find happiness because all beautiful people are stuck up, and arrogant and only want sex. Then he continues and adds that I don't want to speak with him because he is 11 years older then me. That I am missing out ...

I am pretty sure my wrist is just sprained, and is a bitch. On another note, I went to my first gay club tonight. Just got back actually, I went with someone I met online about 2 years ago and met a few months ago. He's really cute btw, but to continue. He calls my up and goes, " I got free passes to this club tonight." I was like lets go, so we get to skip the line they ID me, and you have to be 18, but he whispered something in his ear and he let me in. What T refuses to tell me. And I looked gay tonight, which is very rare. I took out my small clothes and put them on. Well T ran off into the dance crowd. I am left sitting at the bar drinking a coke. Guys all types of guys really cute ones, ugly ones, old ones, hunks, and everything in between started coming up to me. I danced with a few got some numbers. I have never felt dancing with a hundred of guys before I loved it. They played my kind of music to DHT, Aqua, Tatu, Frou Frou, Imogen Heap, Darude, Rockell, La Bo...

I have hurt my wrist tonight at cheerleading. I hope its only a sprain because I did no tumbling. But it feels like it did 2 years ago when I tore my TFCC on my right wrist. Which is a serious cartiliage tear on the base of the ulna. It cost 20,000 dollars to repair after all medical costs. I pray to God it's only a sprain. I can't miss this seasons its my last. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Okay so I just got my competition schedule for All Star Cheerleading this year. We have UCA in Orlando, which is great because of Disney World and ESPN airs these live. But it's so damn hot and humid I walked off the plain 2 years ago for this competition, and I though I was gonna die whne i went out of the aiport. Then there is World Championships in Miami. Great my first second Trip ever to Miami in April, and you know something. It's so hot and humid, and we have to compete outside. But I love competitions they are so much fun. Except after about a hour I will look like I took a shower from sweat. But I'm latin, and look it so I should fit right in. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

I am scared. My Mom went to the doctor this afternoon after 6 radiation treatments, and alot of chemo. The tumor has not changed in size. It hurts me so bad seeing her suffer daily, and there is nothing I can do about it. I hate feeling helpless, but I try everything I can do to make her feel better. I pray God's on my side. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Pat Roberston has lost it. He is blaming Ellen for Katrina and 9-11!!!! Read it here

I have a love for movies but who doesn't. The movie Genre I love most, is horror. Especially zombie movies, but recently not even those have been good. I recently watched Seed Of Chucke and I am ashamed of what they have done to this franchise of movie. It was just so messed up I even liked Bride of Chucke. But they have gone away from the original concept of the movie. But also at the same time, our generation expects something completely different with horror films. I just prefere 80's horror films they are so good. On another note the only movie I can say I have seen, and adore it's director, writers, and actors is Cursed. This movie is far different then any of our other modern day ones, it has more suspense, and twists like the movies in the 80's had. Also I was also highly impressed with Christina Ricci's work in this movie. I applaud her, for this is truly the first movie where she has not acted her normal role. In The Hot Chick, and the Scary Movie franchise...

One of my best friends JJ called mup crying and sobbing today, because she broke up with her bf of three weeks. Three weeks I say get it over it, she claims she loved him but whatever. To get to the point she wanted to toy with his head. She didn't know how, well a long time ago I heard of a thing were you can call someones phone but on their caller ID it sais someone else was calling. So we googled it and to say I found this site called Spooftel . This little amazing invention I quickly forgot about JJ and starting using it. I soon realized I could call anyone and make anything appear on their caller ID. So I tested my house phone and did God from 666. It worked. I was pissed with Tay and he is deeply religoious so I called him and did this 6 times from God Number-666. I then called my ex and made if appear as if his number was calling himself a few times. Then the fun part comes. John came over and I told him about it. He showed me these switch boards at Ebaums world . One for M...

There is one blog I love to read. In fact I read it everyday. I love this blog dearly it's amusing and always has a new twist and something fun it. Several people not just one have been trashing alot of the blogs I read and love reading. If this one gets trashed upon by shitty comments. I will be highly pissed. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

I do not like 9-11 never do I. It always seems everyday I look at the clock at 9:11 PM. My brothers birthday is 9-11. I was born at 9:11 AM. The address for my school the number is 911, we stayed in room 911 at the marriot this summer. I just don't like it. It gives me chills down my spine, but I guess alot of people think like that. However I feel like I will be like this for the rest of my life. There are always numbers everyone has them that scares them. I guess thats why right after midnight on9 9-11 at 12:30 we get a call. It is from the Motel 6 several exits up on the interstate. The daughter of that I'll man my Mom saw last week died in the hospital tonight. My Mom was right he had pheunomia. Not bacterial, but Viral. This deeply saddens me to the point of tears. We try so hard to help others, but even when we try our hardest so many times it's not enough. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

In April I decided I wanted to start jogging. I could not jog, and had said this before but this time I actually have stayed with it for 5 months, and enjoy and do it 3-5 times a week. Before I gave up after about3 days of doing it. I haven't lost weight, but I feel great while running. I bought a pedometer tonight I wanna get more serious about this. I can do 2.5 miles in 27 minutes which I don't think is bad. 6 Months ago I couldn't run a 1/4 of a mile by Christmas I wanna be able to run a full 4 miles in 45 minutes. I still have alot of stuff about running I am finding out. Alot of it I have found out by reading a blog you will find to the side called Running Susans. Very helpful. Also tomarrow Sunday is my brothers birthday. The weird thing is they are twins born on 9-11-1992, We had a warning I am serious. One of them got a new 4-wheeler the other an Ipod Nano( LITTLE BRAT), and a desktop. One is redneck the other is very tech savy. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

PICS TAKEN DOWN SRY So I have gotten alot of requests by email so people can see what Tragedy looks like. They are about a week old!!! Enjoy Loves, Tragedy

I just realized something. When you have a blog there are always gonna be those people who don't like it and say shitty things about it. I'm just gonna bitch to them and not let it bother me. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Okay I have was in a very bad mood all day yesterday I don't generally cuss that much. Sorry Sven . In reply to this fools comment "You say your family has all this money power and influence that your always throwing up in people's faces on your blog. Pay somebody to do it or are you expecting special treatment because your privledged!!!" I have never claimed my family has money, power, nor influence. I never claimed I was privileged, thats just something your assuming. My life is far from that at this moment in time. I am content with what I have in life. I enjoy everything I have and don't take anything for granted. I enjoy everything other kids my age enjoy. I have no special treatments, and I am treated the same as everyone else. My mom has cancer, my step-dad took half of everything in the divorce, and my dad is an alcoholic. Tell me does this really sound so picture perfect? I suggest you analyze everything your making claims about. If you want to bitch fi...

Okay it's official this blog is 3 months old. I want a customized blog with my own little banner and everything. Only problem is I am not sure how to go about doing this. If anyone can tell me how I would really appreciate it. Also I love DHT's new song listent o your heart. When I was downloading it I didn't know there was a Techno version. Which I much prefere to the slow one. Cheers Loves, Tragedy

I just bought a new Ipod Mini 4 months ago, and now what the fuck do they come out with? A fucking Ipod Nano FUCK U. Fucking Cheers, Tragedy

WTF is this new word verification shit on peoples blogs when I wanna leave a post this is so fucking annoying ang takes so god damn long

GOD DAMNIT!!!!! Can you believe there are only 6 episodes of Kathy Griffins show I want more fuck u BRAVO!!!!! I WANT MORE KATHY!!!!!! Cheers Loves, Tragedy

Okay so Naked wanted me to do this. Hell why not I have nothing better to do then bitch about lif; when in all reality I know I have it made. 7 things I plan to do before I die: Marry someone who is the dearest to me Have kids: a boy named Prada, and two girls Chanel and Dior ( you might call it gay, but I love those names) Run a multimillion dollar corporation Become a succesful multimillionaire businessman Loose virginity Have a huge Southern Plantation Estate home on 50 acres with a pond and bradford pairs up along the driveway thats gated Have that god damn 6 pack rocking body I have always wanted 7 things I can do: Masturbate Write Make Money Run a business Splits in any direction Piss people off Speak Spanish and English 7 things I cannot do: Go a day without talking about something business related Go a day without without jacking off My fucking backhandspring or tuck at the moment Draw Refer to black people as black people I always say African Americans Sing Touch my tongue t...

Okay so with hurricane Katrina there are about 200 people 2 exits up on the freeway staying at a Motel 6. These are poor uneducated black people who have nothing nearly all of them are homeless. My Mom and a Doctor went up because these people were in need of a doctor for prescriptions because they couldn't have theirs transferred from New Orleans the city is flooded, and pharmacy's are gone. These people have diabetes, arthritis, and everything else in the book. 2 were admitted to the hospital. 50 kids were there and knowing this I went with her. These people were very hungry and needed some decent food, the churches had their hands full. So I called the place where I work, and a local pizza buffet place. They donated 13 pizzas for the kids, and where I work gave me tons of goodies for the kids. Well I get there the kids love it, and they just surround themselves around me and kill the pizza. I leave for 5 minutes to run to the bathroom, and alot of people have left. I come ba...

Okay so alot has been happening in my life the last week. I haven't even had time to update. Just to get the major stuff we have finally stopped moving, and Wensday I was up for 24 hours straight no lie. Moving I was tired, and I have been running on about 3 hours of sleep for the last week. I about can't make it, even my 50 year old mom with cancer is holding it better then me right now. Here's the problem we are moving from a 6000 = squarefoot home downt o a 2800. We have alot of shit, and nowwhere to put it. Our garage is piled up to the ceiling with stuff that we used to have places for. No lie this is a disaster and Tragedy is the one who is going to have to sort through it. My Mom got my up at 6 to help with her "yard sale". I ain't doing it I am writing this and I made her yard sale signs then I am going back to sleep. I need at least 10 hours of sleep a day to make sure I look " fabulous!" Cheers Loves, Tragedy