A Modern Day Tragedy: 13+ Years Post Emo Kid

Because so far this week I have nothin interesting to blog about. (You can tell from my last few posts) I am gonna do what Susan did... 28 things about me, I'm to lazy to think of 100. Growing up I loved astronomy. I would always watch those shows on TV about space, and I love Carl Sagans, Cosmos. I have the hots for Suze Orman and Norah Jones. Currently I'm reading Trumped and Everything I Learned In Business I Learned From Monopoly. I currently know everykind of business I want to do in the next decade. I hate the colour green with a passion. I love listening to the Christmas music station here in Atlanta. I have for years wanted to take up Ballet. I am a former gymnast, turned All Star Cheerleader. I love the South more then anything, and I couldn't live anywhere else. Sometimes I think I can live as a bohemian and be an artist, but reality quickly sets in. I love to paint, write, and take photography. I have a dog named Coco. I ad...

Oh Lord, I need so start doing lunges. Click Here , to read why having a big ghetto booty that jiggles like jello, is bad... And this type of butt, runs in my family. I find the MSN.com articles addicting especially the ones in the Health and Fittness section of the website. I just read them, and read them, and thats why I know stuff; noone cares about. Also I love Carlos Mencia, everytime I see his show I just crack up laughing. I don't really like the Chapelle Show... But I think it's cause I'm Hispanic and everyting Carlos Mencia says reminds me of my family

When I am bored like I am now, I type in random things in Google, and go to webpages. I typed in Jesus and look what I found. Click Here

Today coming back from my new gym I see a bunch of people standing on the sides of the road at a busy intersection by our towns stripmalls. I was like WTF are they doing, looked to me like they were protesting something. Well driving by I read their sign it stated... " Queers will burn in hell unless they repent." Needless to say I was already in a bad mood coming home from practice. I was sore and having a hell of a time with my mental blocks. I opened my bottle of Powerade, took a nice deep sip of the blue liquid, called Frost, and chugged it at one of the assholes as hard as I could, and sped off. 5 minutes later I called Greg and he and the guys from my old gym drove out there, and drove around the interection in their cars playing " Lookin Cute, Feelin Cute" by the Gay Pimp. As loud as they could until they pissed the angry Southern Baptist people off, and they left.

Here in Charleston I am about to pull my hair out. Besides going jogging to ease my mind which ended up for the worst running time in forever, the only other thing I can do to keep my sanity is talk to Greg on the phone. I have been calling him " butt boy" lately, and he finally asked where I picked it up from. I couldn't think of where I picked it up from, and I realized I picked it up from Naked's blog. For 2 weeks I have been calling Greg " butt boy", but at least it's better then his name for me which is " booger."

Lately I have really been neglecting my running and eating routines. Normally my day includes Salmon and rice for lunch, chicken ceasar salad for dinner, and a veggie burger with veggie chips right after I run, or a combination of the three with other health foods in there, and a 3 miles run almost every day. I have been drinking the hoodia tea almost everyday, but at the same time I have been eating everything in sight. From Musketeer bars, snickers, oreos, Mac and Cheese, and today I had 3 candy apples with a calories intake of more then 2300 in them alone. I've been "double eating" as Naked , calls it. I feel bloated, and icky so I decided to go to for a run tonight right after dinner. In my normal routine I have an exact 12 minute, and between each mile a one minute water break. Tonight I did one mile in 14 minutes, and I could hardly do it. The second one was a joke I had to take a 3 minute break, and I could only sprint, and not run the complete mile it took m3 almo...

I went to competition yesterday with my old gym. I was up at 6 AM and went to sleep at at 2 AM this morning. It was great I love my new gym they are so awsome on the team. But I must try to get some shuteye I have slept for about 7 hours, but the cars outside are keeping me awake. Also I am going to be leaving for Charleston, SC. Tomarrow to to go and spend Thanksgiving like normal with my Aunt and her family. Everyone from my house always goes this is our usual family get away( please save me).

My cousin who is like my brother is gonna have his first son in the next few weeks. They finally decided on the name. Timothy, which I think is cute. It's gonna be a boy. I am gonna have him call me Uncle *****. I can't wait. I am so excited.

I love Hooters, no not boobs, even though they are hot to. I love Hooters the restaurant. I have always lved going to eat there, and the girls can start the best conversations. My favorite waitress at our local Hooters is Jen. I went in there tonight with friends, and she's gonna be leaving us in January. I am glad for her though, she is highly intelligent, and is in college majoring in Economics. She has a job offering in NYC with some financial institution. I will be sad. I also love their buffalo shrimp, and their chicken sandwich thing with that spicey sauce I can't remember what it's called, they also have really good crab legs. I am glad though only girls are waiters at Hooters. If guys were I don't think I would eat there.

Me and Greg go to mall. Together we go into Abercrombie. Based on my assumption of never have been in an Abercrombie store before. I am assuming any guy who works there is Gay, if they're not gay. Well then, they are just in denial.

The doctor os sending my Mom home, one day earlier then planned. He said they need the rooms and he thinks she will be fine. I really wanna kill him at this current moment in time.

I just came home for the first time in 3 days. My Mom is still at the hospital an hour and a half away, but she is doing better today. I came home, but ont by choice. I have things to do, school work, practice, and work galore. I will go and see her tomarrow though and the day after the docs are expecting her to return home. This is a little off topic, but there is this new hype about Hoodia. Which is supposed to be this excellent weight loss appetite suppresant. Now for some reason my text is all funny and I can't figure out how to fix it!!!!! Back on topic. I've heard some about it and have done my own research into it. I have been meaning to loose about 10 pounds since competition season is here, and that excellent 6 pack seems to elude me. I flex like hell to get a 3 1/2 pack, and yes I am serious. It's a 3 1/2 pack, and that exhaling all my breathe and sucking in and I look like im constipated. But I didn't want to take the Hoodia pills. So after much searching I...

Saturday morning I woke up to the sound of my Mother vomiting her ass off in the bathroom. She was so dehydrated, her skin was so pale, and she could barely stand. I helped her back to bed, and within the hour I had called the amubalance to get her to the hospital. With the chemo, radiation, and other treatments right now her immune system is incredibly weak. She has a severe case of the flu, I have been spending my time with her in the room, while my brothers have been flown to their fathers house in NY. She is incredibly weak and it just hurts me to see her lying there not being able to do a thing. I don't like the feeling of not being in control of the situation 6 months ago if you had asked me if I had control over my domain in life. I would have answered with a big fat yes, but now I see it I don't. She is sleeping right now, IV fluids are keeping her hydrated, and she has a feeding tube in her nose. 6 months ago she started getting sick, and 3 months ago we knew what it ...

This morning I picked Greg up. The look on his face when he saw the truck was so funny. He was like WTF in his mind I am sure. So I take him to Cracker Barrel, and he orders fried catfish and hates it, while I am eating my Chicken Fried Chicken yummy. We go riding, he hates it. He wants down, complaining the whole time. Afraid the horse was gonan throw him off, and I even gave him out old horse who is ancient. That horse can't even buck probably. But I loved him he looked so cute riding on it. Even though he eventually gave up and joined me on my horse, Lighting. I loved him being right there behind me grabbing on. He is such a sweetie. Then to torture him even more we stop at one of my favorite places to eat. Becky Sue's Country Cookin is about as hickish as they come. I ordered fried chicken with mash potatoes, cole slaw, and collard greens it was so good. Greg by this time is starving and orders BBQ, with slaw, mash potatoes, biscouts and gravy. It was fun trying to watch hi...

I really wanna see RENT, I have been seeing the previews on TV, and everytime I just have the urge to see it even more. I bought the soundtrack today, and it is AMAZING, Greg has not interest in seeing it neither do any of my friends. Looks like I'll be going alone... November 23, 2005

Greg is from California, and because he is out of school tomarrow amd doesn't have work.I am gonna introduce him to the way things are done in the South. He as lived here a almost a year, and has never ridden a horse, never eaten Southern food, hates country, and everything that goes along with it. I told him this afternoon I will pick him up at 10 AM, and to dress down. I am gonna pick his ass up in our truck, take him to Cracker Barrel, then head an hour out to our farm and make his ass ride a horse.Also I might take him to Atlanta's country club Wild Bills

Greg is in the work program where he gets out everyday at 11 AM to go to work as this real estate office in a close city. He doesn't have to be there until 1PM everyday so he has two hours to spare. He calls me and we decide to go out and eat. There is this nice little place a few miles down the road, where it's a grill like place. The waitress was taking a long time to get to the table, so the manager yells at her, and the manager takes out drink order. Then the girl finally comes around, and we order. The food was taking a long time, but the girl kept coming back asking if we were okay. She looked stressed and tired as hell. We started watching her, and noticed she didn't have 5 or 6 tables in our section, but was doing 3 sections with about 14 tables altogether. We asked her if she was being over worked. She told one person quit this morning, and another called in sick so she was running three sections by herself. With the manager constantly on her back, and people fussi...

Going to Augusta my and my Mom drove our truck. This thing gets about 19/23 miles to the gallon which isn't bad for a truck. But gas is outrageous. On the way down there we passed by this gas station with gas $1.96 a gallon. I am not lying I took a picture of the sign I will post it later. I was like holy shit, I have not seen gas that low in over a year 1/2. We filled up, it's to far for me to go and fill up about 2 hours away. Also I loved this doctor of natural medicine we saw today. She was excellent and she has given us a diet program of mainly organic, and raw foods to eat, and a excercise program of yoga 5 days a week for my Mom. I am a big believer in natural medicines and remedies. She had cancer once, did this program, and she was cured 6 months later. My mom has decided though to do this and stay witht the chemo and radiation treatments for a while longer, as well as the clinical trial drug. My mom had to do about 4 hours worth of tests with that woman today. So I dr...

This morning I am preparing for a day trip to Augusta, GA with my Mom. I have found a homeopathic doctor down there who treats cancer, using all natural techiques. Mainly by changing your diet, and such things like this. I have heard things about this over the years, but a few weeks ago I looked into it farther. I found one, called and loved what she said. So I signed my Mom up, and we are on our way down there.

Greg called me when he found out what happened to me last night. I am still very upset about the whole thing, but oh well. He picked me up and me and him rode into Midtown, and went to Outwrite. We talked just about everything, and the drama thats happening right now at the gym. It's in chaos, and I just can't go back. I know I can't. He is just so sweet I love him. He just listened and told me everything I needed to hear to make me feel better. Then some guy who was extremely attractive walked in withsome guy. Greg's eyes got the size of my cup of coffee, and he said, " Let's go." This guy turns around and sees him and walk up to us with this guy. The Dude: Hey Greg... Greg: Ummm... Hi Rob, how are you. Rob: Good, this is my boyfriend Steven. Greg at this point grabs my hand and is squeezing it as tight as possible. Greg: Hi your a cutie, this is my boyfriend ****** Rob: Oh hi, I am Greg's exboyfriend. Greg: Yeah, well we have to be going we have p...

Does anyone find this show as fascinating as me? This week I am not enjoying the episodes that much because it's newlyweds with problems(boring). Last week they had this girl with Willie Prader Syndrome where you just crave food all the time, and you also have mild mental retardation problems. This girls mother would beat her, with the belt when she was hungry, and would throw pissy fits because she wanted food. However she couldn't help it. It's in her DNA to crave food like that. Then they had this couple where the wife was spending money out the ass. Her husband was a doctor, and this women had put them 80k in debt. That was an excellent episode. On another note people have critized this blog for using bad grammar. I don't give a crap. I write these entries in a hurry, and I don't have time to edit them.

All this hype about Avian flu concerns me. However I have done my own research into this. After much study, and research, I have came to the conclusion; that I am at a low risk. So are the majority or you. It is not possible to contract the disease from cooked meats, because the heat kills the viral strains. The majority of the people who have contracted the disease, are people who have chickens or turkeys, and mainly contract the disease when they are killing them to eat. With our current supply of anti-viral drugs, I am fairly confident that if if does reach the point where it can be transmitted from person to person. We can use these drugs to treat the sypmtoms and help keep the number of dead low. The only people who I feel are really immune to the virus though. Are people who have a super charged immune system from excercise, strict diet, and healthy living choices. I don't fall into tis catagory, neither does the majority of the population....

Tonight has been a painful night for me. At practice tonight Mike was coaching us criticing us in our routine. I kept messing up with my blades, motions, etc. He kept having to correct me. Then comes the time to stunt. My group is not going so well. We get her up into a single base extension, and she falls. I try to catch her, but I completely miss. He gets up and stars yelling at me. Mike: " The the hell is wrong with you boy, are to fucking lazy to catch her?" "Anwser me!" Me: " I don't know what happened sir." Mike: " I know what happened, she was falling and you let her hit the ground." Me: " I am sorry I didn't mean to, really I didn't I tried." Mike: " You try?. You need to try harder, she fell and could have hurt herself. You are worthless. You can't can't do blades, stunt, tumble, or anything. Your worthless, you are a useless. Your a boy and you can't do anything right. I don't see why your here...

I wondered why for some reason I loved red and white wines, over beerand other alcohol. Here is the reason why you should not drink beer.

I have a pulled muscle in my neck. And it's from a roundoff, this is extremely embarrasing. It also hurts like a bitch.

Johns parents were in Atlanta for something tonight. So he threw a small get together for the guys. About 7 of us sitting there watching a rerun of football( what do they see in this sport), for about an hour. Then we went out got some pizza, walked around Sports Authority, and then decided to go play paintball at the local place. Paintball is so much fun. But its so expensive, I wish I could have brought my own gun, rentals suck. 30 bucks for some shitty ass thing that jammed twice, I love my Angel. Paintball is my love. Then we came back to his house, and were just sitting on the back porch drinking( I am sure some of them had smoked pot as well). John's parents left some prunes sitting out. They dared someone to eat this whole huge bag, and eventually they coughed up 50 bucks for someone to eat it. I needed the money so I did. They didn't taste to bad, kinda like sticky raisins, but they were sticky, ew. I have never had them before, and I now am regretting it. My stomach...

This morning about 7 AM, I get a call from my gym. They said one of the coaches hurt their leg, and can't coach their normal classes for 3 weeks. Asked if I could fill in for him this morning, and for the next three weeks. I agreed, but only because I love coaching and it pays awsome. I get there and its the usual 3-6 students per my class and teaching them gymnastics fundamentals. Then around 10 AM another class starts. I wish they had told me I was going to be retrieving a mentally slow child. Coaching them is not a problem, they just require more attention. I was expecting her to have very bad skills, and expecting to spend alot of time with her. My other kids I spotted first, and gave them drills to work on. I go up and say, " Ready?" She replied , " yeah." She did a double backhandspring tuck. Without me spotting, or counting she just threw it. I stood there amazed, and then she said look again. I watched her get on the tumble mat and throw a round off ba...

This makes me ponder long and hard.... A gay teen is missing from NYC. Read the article its interesting, but when it said the 14 year old came out to his Mother. It made me think. How the hell can you know your gay at 14? You might suspect it, but how do you know? When I was 14 I had thoughts but I thought it was a phase, and didn't really think anything of it... Read It here

I was in the car this afternoon with 3 other people here is what they said. FYI there was this awful smell outside from a broken water lane we were passing and traffic was oh so slow. Shae: Ew... Whats that small?!? Chrissy: I don't know, where is it coming from? John: Damn thats awful, it's coming from the outside air..> *****(refering to me the driver) turn off the AC it's coming in from outside. Chrissy: Yeah roll down the windows, to let the air out. Shae and John: Good idea... Can you believe they all rolled down the windows... My friends are idiots

This is from Halloween night. This costume was made at the last minute I was in some store and saw makeup and fake wounds for cheap so I bought them. I have gun holes in my face, but you can't see them. Alot of people loved it and took pictures, others hated it. One woman said, " You'll give my kids nightmares, go away..." F her... I had fun, but noone knew who I was. They refered to me as " Bloody Guy". Not eve my close friends knew who I was....

For the time being I am going back to the original design of the blog, until I have time to work my way through the HTML of the last and figure out the comment bug. It exists somewhere in there, but I am extremely rusty at HTML.

I recieved 16 emails today all saying " I can't post a comment" I am completely aware of this problem and I am working on a solution. I will let you know once its resolved.

This morning JJ and me stopped by Starbucks, I got my Green Tea Frap as usual, and she got something I had to listen to her complain about how bad it is for her, for an hour. While we were in there however there was this beautiful woman, sitting on the opposite side of us. With what I will take it was business collegues. She was beautiful, had this long blonde hair, deep blue eyes, and was wearing Emo glasses. I have a thing for Emo glasses, and I am not sure why. I would have done her, she was that attractive. Once in a great while I will see a woman I would do... I only run into one everyfew months, but when I see one... I Just can't help but stare at them, and want to ask them for their number. However I seem to only like 30 year old something non mothers who are single and have Emo glasses.

I haven't been checking my email for this blog, and it's been about a week. I had 15 emails this morning, and 11 of them were how to post a comment on my blog... To post a comment you will see a number beside the title of the entry for that day. You will move your mouse over it, and it will light up and say " some number... Comments". You click it and it will take you to the page where you can post your comments. Also 2 emails asking to advertise on this blog. The answer is NO!!!! Another 2 asking me to link to them.... I think not. I link only to blog I enjoy reading... Your blog is lame, yes you know who you are....

Lunch 1 Bag of Mini Pretzels-55 Calories 1 Reeses Pieces- 75 Calories 1 Serving Of Mini Wheaties without Milk- 200 Cals 1 Black Bean Chipotile- 240 2 glasses of diet coke-0 Dinner Glass Of Diet Pepsi-0 Homemade Grilled Chicken Ceaser Salad- 500 Calories Snacks - Drinks - 3 Glasses Of Fresh Green Tea-0 Total-1070

Daylight Savings Time is really messing with my brain right now.... You know how you don't have a clock but can just guess the time of the day, and be pretty freaking close... My internal brain clock needs to be reprogrammed now...